Well.. I'm not that special of a person.. I have my own set of peoblems, just like everyone else... I walk and talk, like everyone else.. I love and care, like everyone else... but deep inside... i'm not the same as everyone else. I don't know how to describe, the feelings I have inside.. am I Depressed? Am I hurt? Am I happy, Or am I sad? I just can't decide.. so I pick them all. Maybe that's the reason why I feel.. The way I do. I don't know why i'm on this damned planet, forced to live with people, that are so different from me... Am I the stranger? Or are they? Help me decide, oh help me decide.
Life or Death, Sorrow or Happiness.. what's the difference? I feel empty inside.. and I... Am alone, even when I'm around people.. I'm always alone. Well... I'm trying to make myself happy.. but I can't... on the inside anyway. People think I'm happy... it's just a mask.. I've always had that mask on... always put up that happy face.. But now... it's just so hard. I don't know anymore... I just don't know... Being Depressed doesn't help the fact that I'm completely and utterly weak! A prisioner forced to watch other people be happy. No one gets me. Anyway, I'm a person who lives & breathes the same air as every other human being on this disparing world. It gets to me.. I hate when people think they know me... when they don't. They look down apon me. The truth is... one day i'll be looking down on them. Fuck having someone who loves me.. No one does. One wish to have come true.. someone that loves me for.. me.. Not for what I have. Because the truth is.. i have NOTHING!
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